RIP Dj Am
By Jean Melesaine

On June 29th Adam Goldstein wrote in his blog about addiction -- a very brief and subtle plead to whomever reads his blog to tell them or a family member they know to e-mail him and talk about their addiction on a MTV show where he plays as what they call their "sponsor". A "sponsor" is someone, usually a former substance abuser, who helps you to recovery and sobriety. Last week Goldstein, also known as DJ AM was found dead in his New York apartment with half a bag a crack laid next to him. He was only 36 years old. I am an avid turtablism listener, because turntablists, I believe, know the great philosophy of music.

Last September the well known DJ was on tour with a good friend and drummer of Blink 182 when the both of them survived a plane crash together survivng the rest of the crew on the plane. After surviving the deadly plane crash AM told MTV News in an interview, "My emotions go back and forth, at the first hospital, I screamed, 'Thank you!' Then I wondered, 'Why did I live?' I can't believe I made it. Any second, it can all be gone."

I wonder if the pressure of guilt pawned him in his anti-deppresant overdose and the purpose of taking so many pills. DJ Am didn't have a great life growing up. His father, who also was a drug abuser, died of AIDS. What goes wrong in all these cases that involve money and fame? Why do so many of these peoples dreams end in this way? Everything is never what it seems, which can apply to music as well.

The philosophy of music is, its a buffet. There's so many options. There is going to be things you like and things you don't like, but maybe if you mix the two together who knows. DJ Am once said,"People want to PARTY! They are there to have fun so they are more willing to go on a lil' musical genre journey."

RIP Dj Am.